Remembering my "niat"

I have this dizzy spell since the past 1 week. Most probably because of too much coffee...here everybody loves coffee, I need to break off from coffee. Alhamdulillah my research is progressing well. It is tough as I have to meet lots of people for this training stuff...all the ED and ICU nurses, registrars, and even the top people in ED and ICU...pretty scary, as just yesterday I attended a meeting of senior doctors in ED...however this chance is good for my career. I got the chance to meet the ICU director...and he would help me register with the MCNZ for the intensive care training (part time? do I have time?). All I need to do is to gather all reports on my previous jobs and training from previous supervisors and HODS. The problem is...apart from the expected lenghty process to gather all the necessary requirements......is whether I am ready to do this? People around me told me that I would miss my clinical experience if I don't do this. However, when I am at ICU this past 1 week, I don't feel that I am missing it. Actually I welcome this new experience of becoming a researcher or "scientist". I have been doing clinical works for the past 11 years! That is not including my medical student days. I have been in ICU and OT for the past 9 years! I think that is an enough time for a change, I need this change (esp with no calls.....). I will still proceed with my application for MCNZ registration, I really need to remember my "niat"....it is really a blessing for me if I got the chance to do ICU training as well. It's just like killing 2 birds with one stone....i'll be able to get both clinical and research training. I will start writing all the required paperwork, and send them to my previous boss........insyaAllah, if it is for the best, Allah will open this path for me, ameen.

ALhamdulillah

I meant to write something...ages ago. I have a very good intention on writing on tips on IELTS exam, on processes needed to apply for scholarships & available scholarships, on the process of visa application, on tips of preparation before coming here to NZ etc etc....I would really like to give something out as I have gained so much from reading blogs of others. However, I have been very very very busy.....initially before flying because of the need to settle so many things work and home and also all the preparation to come here. And now, with the reading I need to caught up with and all the preparations for our research (due to start in the next of couple of weeks!). I am overwhelmed....I will make some time to write, insyaAllah.

Alhamdulillah, I am relieved now after an evening with my supervisor. I have this thing of inferiority especially when dealing with those at high rank. My primary supervisor is the Head of Department here and also a very distinguished professor in his field. I have little contact with him before coming here. Most of my contact is with my co-supervisor who is also his research manager, and he has been very very helpful to me throughout this period. I think my primary supervisor notices that I am not very comfortable with him (I am dealing with this inferiority complex...). Alhamdulillah today, at a bbq dinner at his house, I finally breaks the ice...frankly I told him that I need some time to adapt from clinical work to research work, and to put in my thinking cap into that area, and that I will work hard and also thanking him for having me as his student and infact telling him that I hope he wouldn't regret having me as his student......and he has been very encouraging and supportive, and his wife is lovely and welcomed us with open arms......and their house is lovely. I know I am rambling, it is now 230am and I can't sleep. ALhamdulillah....all these are only possible with Allah's grace. He had made this journey possible and open this path for me. I am going to put all effort in this, and always remember my 'niat', and stop all the questions of 'what am I doing here?'.......May ALlah bless this journey always, and help us throughout the way in this path, ameen....

Our birthday treat from beloved mom

Thank you mom....

@#$%

I am in the middle of CLA course...in the midst of various lectures. Surprisingly the lectures are quite good and informative, mostly are on researches. Got some useful tips for my PhD quest in the future. Just got a call letter to attend BTN (and it will be at Balik Pulau, Penang!). Also was told that the dateline for us to fly to NZ is on the 7th of December! Manage to ask for extension to the 14th of December as per the offer letter. I am really overwhelmed....so many things to do in a very short time. And here I am still sitting for my CLA.....anyway, it's finishing tomorrow. Still have some time. InsyaAllah, semoga dipermudahkan Allah.

IELTS result

OK? Satisfied?.....Worth all the effort? Alhamdulillah..........I can now proceed with our visa application. Hmmmmmmm but I need to brush up my writing skill, especially if I want to write a good PhD thesis. Wonder if I could get a feedback from the examiner.

Now....for the visa application. We need to go to KL this Wednesday for the medical checkup. Apparently we need to go to listed panel doctors for the medical examination, and the one in Kuantan is on leave until next week. So off we go again, to KL. It seems we have been in KL on a weekly basis. Once we are in KL, we also need to go to Wisma Putra to get a letter of good conduct, need to collect an official financial affidavit from IIUM (hope they have prepared it). Later, when we come back to KL again we can pick up the medical certificates from the panel doctor and once ready, couriered everything to Singapore....then wait and see............then BTN, then collapse........... It seems that everything has been running smoothly. It is sign that this is a good path for me, after istikharah prayer before, insyaAllah.

Total Bliss......

I am taking 2 days leave...after an exhausting day trip to Gombak....for a 5-minute interview. However, alhamdullillah it went well. This morning I spent 1 hour arranging and finalizing the marks for block 1 student...........and later rest and kemas rumah (yg tak habis2). But, it is a zen moment being at home.............

Ramblings of a tired mind....

I am amazed at the speed of things at this moment. I don't have time to think and to have second thoughts. My prospective supervisor has been very supportive to me all these while. I just sent an email to the manager of the international office requesting for an earlier intake date. With just a phone call to my prospective supervisor, a letter was drafted and immediately emailed to me in the very same morning! This is how things should work and has been working in most of Western countries. If it is the case in Malaysia, they would need to wait for a meeting, for an approval from so many authorities, for a letter.....all the never-ending excuses.