What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.
ONLY TO YOU WE WORSHIP, AND ONLY TO YOU WE ASK FOR HELP (1:7)
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Thyroid and emotional disturbances
Not sure whether there is a correlation. It swings today, to the bad side, affecting others. Then, life changing experience occurs....life changing indeed, compounding my insecurities...forever, can i still blame the event that occurs 30 years ago? The insecurities...o Allah, forgive me...to those affected, forgive me
Friday, March 1, 2013
I am not sure what I am feeling right now, but it is not of a happy mode. It is wrong for me as a muslim to say that I am depressed. But I feel really down today. It is a feeling compounded by the uncertainty on what is the future. My patience of waiting for feedback from my supervisor has been running out. Ya Allah help me, assist me, only to You I turn. The bad2 feeling keep coming back. The dream, the expectation, the future.....i can cry anytime, but I need to always remember the good things that have been bestowed on me....
Wednesday, February 13, 2013
The Ocean of This Dunia
…we/you are all in the ocean of this duniya; if you panic or have anxiety about things or situations, you will drown. Just RELAX, and you will float because you are in good hands!…. [Paraphrased]
Relax, Azrina...don't worry to much, or you will drown. Leave everything to Allah....you have tried the best...ketenangan, kebergantungan kepada Allah....
Relax, Azrina...don't worry to much, or you will drown. Leave everything to Allah....you have tried the best...ketenangan, kebergantungan kepada Allah....
Thursday, January 31, 2013
Endless waiting
It has been ages since I last update my blog. It is going to be February tomorrow, oh no...that is the dateline for my thesis submission. That is my dateline, although actually extension until end of April has been approved due to the earthquake. But I have enough of these, I really want to get this over with....am too tired with this.!!! Hence, today I have sent a compilation of thesis to my supervisors. I really hope they could go over the thesis soon to enable me to submit by the end of February, and hopefully to graduate in May, ameen....Ya Allah, Ameen...
Wednesday, October 17, 2012
Update
This has became sort of my PhD blog, my sanctuary. It seems weird...but I think I am more incline to open up writing this blog than writing a status update in my FB page....not sure why..ha ha. This blog serves as a site to unload myself, writing nonsense sometimes, and of late this has became a blog about my PhD journey. It will be sweet memories in the future when I look back (this is another advantage of blog versus fb, I can always flick over my previous posts since 2007 (wow, not realizing that it has been 5 years I have been blogging), and it brings sweet memories...)
OK, now update on my PhD (I seems to be in a good mood, alhamdulillah...so is it good progress?) Not sure, for my part, I think I have done to the best of my ability. Now up to my supervisor to review them and give their honest comment. I must be prepared for any possiblity (hope it be a good one, and if not a good one, may I be able to stand and fight...ameen). I have sent the second draft of Chapter 1 to 3 to my first supervisor last week. This is after almost 3 weeks of lack of sleep, almost spending 15 to 18 hours per day (with only 4-5 hours of sleep). As a result of this, my immunity level went down the hill, and I caught another bouts of flu, but alhamdulillah this time it only lasted for 2 weeks. Alhamdulillah again I have received feedback from my second supervisor on Chapter 4. There are several areas to work on, but it is managaeble (I think, hopefully as I have only glanced through it). Alhamdulillah again (Ya Allah, thank you for Your many blessings), my analysis on Chapter 5 yielded some good results, I have discussed this with my second supervisor, and alhamdulillah today I have just completed my Chapter 5. Albeit, from our discussion further analysis may be needed on the study, but this is separate from the previous analysis, and if it is good, it merits another chapter. My second supervisor was telling me that "it is only October!", possibly meaning that I have time, and I should not rush into completing it. I must take a break from this constant threat to my body, and my immunity system. But this have to wait until the end of this month. This is when all became OK or not OK. This is when I am going to meet my first supervisor, my main supervisor, and he is the only who can decide that. Ya Allah, I really hope that it is okay...ameen. My second supervisor is very confident with that I am able to complete this, he even goes to say that my future in obscuring grant is good as I have PhD degree from established university, of which I quickly interrupted that this is not yet certain....I just wish that I have his confidence as well. However, confidence may lead me resting on my laurel, whereas uncertainty will make me work harder each day, but I hope not to the state of jeopardizing my health, my family, and my long-term goal....afterall it is only a piece of paper, it is the journey that matter, not the end...and at the end, this degree is not needed for the advancement of my career..but the experience of research and publication will. A reminder for me, this is not only for the advancement of my career, this is for the advancement of knowledge, and hopefully I can share it with other colleagues and students in the near future....
OK, now update on my PhD (I seems to be in a good mood, alhamdulillah...so is it good progress?) Not sure, for my part, I think I have done to the best of my ability. Now up to my supervisor to review them and give their honest comment. I must be prepared for any possiblity (hope it be a good one, and if not a good one, may I be able to stand and fight...ameen). I have sent the second draft of Chapter 1 to 3 to my first supervisor last week. This is after almost 3 weeks of lack of sleep, almost spending 15 to 18 hours per day (with only 4-5 hours of sleep). As a result of this, my immunity level went down the hill, and I caught another bouts of flu, but alhamdulillah this time it only lasted for 2 weeks. Alhamdulillah again I have received feedback from my second supervisor on Chapter 4. There are several areas to work on, but it is managaeble (I think, hopefully as I have only glanced through it). Alhamdulillah again (Ya Allah, thank you for Your many blessings), my analysis on Chapter 5 yielded some good results, I have discussed this with my second supervisor, and alhamdulillah today I have just completed my Chapter 5. Albeit, from our discussion further analysis may be needed on the study, but this is separate from the previous analysis, and if it is good, it merits another chapter. My second supervisor was telling me that "it is only October!", possibly meaning that I have time, and I should not rush into completing it. I must take a break from this constant threat to my body, and my immunity system. But this have to wait until the end of this month. This is when all became OK or not OK. This is when I am going to meet my first supervisor, my main supervisor, and he is the only who can decide that. Ya Allah, I really hope that it is okay...ameen. My second supervisor is very confident with that I am able to complete this, he even goes to say that my future in obscuring grant is good as I have PhD degree from established university, of which I quickly interrupted that this is not yet certain....I just wish that I have his confidence as well. However, confidence may lead me resting on my laurel, whereas uncertainty will make me work harder each day, but I hope not to the state of jeopardizing my health, my family, and my long-term goal....afterall it is only a piece of paper, it is the journey that matter, not the end...and at the end, this degree is not needed for the advancement of my career..but the experience of research and publication will. A reminder for me, this is not only for the advancement of my career, this is for the advancement of knowledge, and hopefully I can share it with other colleagues and students in the near future....
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