I am at KLIA, on the way to New Delhi, India for a meeting. I am half-heartedly going, first due to the fasting month, and secondly the need to involve myself in this research trial. I know that this trial is good for my future as a lecturer in IIUM. But I am sooooo lazy. I have no intention beforehand to burden myself with researches etc. I am content with what I have now. I felt that I have put all my efforts in my studies as an undergraduates, medical officers and postgraduates. I need a break.....in fact 2 years of break, really made me lazy.....he he he.
By involving myself in this research, I really need to be evaluating the patients on a daily basis for a month!!! Not mentioning the need to screen patients, taking consent, administer drugs and taking blood...and there is a possibility of me needing to come early in the morning, like 2 to 3 am. Oh God, I am so lazy!!! With my clinical works and on calls 5 to 6 times per month and teaching duties, I find it hard to concentrate on other things....I know I am whining, other peoples made more sacrifices than me, other lectures involve in many researches and subspecialty training. But they have their motivation. As for me, I am content with what I have now. I don't mind being a chronic specialist, a chronic assistant professor...I have been avoiding my boss persuasion to do a subspecialty training so far. But I don't think I can escape anymore since the university's KPI is for each lecturer to have a subspecialty training.
Wake up Azrina....you have rest for quite some time now. You need to progress from where you are!!!! My husband remind me that all this has been ordained by Allah, and we must make the best of it. InsyaAllah...I will try to enjoy this trip first and think about the research when the time comes. InsyaAllah I shall bear it, after all I had bear the hardship of housemanship and junior MOs. Will try to post some pics later!
ONLY TO YOU WE WORSHIP, AND ONLY TO YOU WE ASK FOR HELP (1:7)
